From The Mouth Of a GoAT

goat4yew @ 2004-09-07T03:07:00

2004-09-07T07:08:49Z

I decided to say fuck it and just post this here for the few people who lack LJ accounts they like to read my LJ's...

I'm leaving this journal. For good. Don't try and talk me out of it, I'm perfectly happy with my new one.

Go here...platinumetude

Add me up if you love me, and, as they say, if not, fuck you.

goat4yew @ 2004-09-07T00:56:00

2004-09-07T04:56:59Z

For those of you who aren't on my friends list, or are too damn lazy to log in and read my friends-only posts (for about the last month thats all I've posted pretty much)...

This journal is officially dead.

So get the fuck out.

goat4yew @ 2004-08-21T18:19:00

2004-08-21T22:19:58Z

I got bored.

And I can't draw hands.

And that's not the entire sketch, because there was weird brown things on my scanner. o_O

EDIT>

I cleaned it. Here's the full.

goat4yew @ 2004-08-20T05:40:00

2004-08-20T09:41:15Z

Not for the faint of heart...or the illegal.

There's time to discriminate, hate every motherfucker that's in your way...

2004-08-19T15:01:24Z

Today's song...is my song of the week. I'm addicted to it. I first heard it a few years back when my cousin bought the CD. I stole it from him before he moved out, but sadly he kept poor care of his CDs. >:[

I'm going to write something today, even if all it is is like a battle scene or something. Maybe I can work off it.

I swear.

I'll even post it up here by midnight tonight so that you all know I speak truths. :D

So, Jackie's resturaunt isn't hiring waiters..just waitresses. I feel oppressed. :(

I do, however, have a position (first in line of applicants, and I didn't even need an application) at the chinese resturaunt her boss is opening right nextdoor called the Concord Inn.

I'm going to be a Bus Boi/Dishwasher, and Jackie's going to be a cocktail waitress there come Janurary. Wee :D

So I have a job...when it opens in September.

It seems just about everyone that reads this LJ has quit Realm or logs on about once a month...so I've been a lone soldier on that game for a good month. I hang out on 4 now and make the "Mentors" look stupider and stupider. :[

I think their goody goody tendencies are getting to me though.

That's a hint, bitches.

It's all relative to the size of your steeple.

Ranty rant rant....

2004-08-12T04:00:41Z

Well!

It's been a long ass time since I had a go at humanity...so I think it's about due.

If you don't like my rants, then go away. Pansy.

The other day I managed to come across a little site (with the help of Lucid, whom I recently re-found...I didn't have his YIM..) that is chock full of little depresso, death loving, Marylin Manson/Crow hybrid bitches that call themselves..."Goth".

Let's take a look at the word 'goth', shall we?

goth
n.
1. One of the Teutonic people who invaded the Roman Empire in the 3rd to 5th centuries

Hold.

Let's see...Teutons who invaded Rome in the third to fifth centuries? Umm...this is the twenty-first century, folks. Teutons you ain't.

2. A crude uncouth ill-bred person lacking culture or refinement

Alright, now, though this COULD define one or two people who ignorantly call themselves 'goth'...just no.

Half of the 'goths' are from ritsy families uptown and were given everything through their entire lives, and choose to hate the world to gain the attention of people whom they claim to hate. Way to be attention whores, guys. Uncouth maybe, but ill-bred? No.

Lacking culture? These...'goths'...call themselves a subculture. So scratch that.

Refinement? Well you seem to think you're pretty goddamn high and mighty, judging everyone else like EVERY other 'subculture' out there. So you have what you THINK is refinement. Deal with it. This definition you ain't.

3. Style of rock music with gloomy lyrics

Well...this MIGHT work...if you're defining music. A person cannot be music...because you are, in fact, flesh and bone, not a combination of pleasing sounds and words.

SO.

You 'goths'...you ain't so goth. Sorry. Come up with another word.

"OH BUT WE'RE GOTHIC NOT GOTH...WE'RE LIKE GOTH BUT NOW GOTH ITSELF, Y'KNOW?"

Whoa, whoa, whoa...

Listen here, mister I lack refinement and are ill-bred...that's pretty fucking educated. Don't do that again, you make yourself look stupid by sounding smart. Contradiction is a powerful tool usually used against one's self.

Now..what were you? Gothic?

Ohh..here we go.

gothic
adj.

1. As if belonging to the Middle Ages; old-fashioned and unenlightened

Unenglightened? Yes...but you dress in metal and denim clothes...that's not very Middle Agery.

SO, you are not this.

2. Characterized by gloom and mystery and the grotesque

Gloom? You try...I'll give you that.

Mystery? You fucking complain, tell me your goddamn life story, and all the things 'wrong' with you (when in fact the only thing wrong with you is that you're a whiny bitch seeking attention)...mysterious you ain't.

Grotesque? Only after you piss me off enough to beat your face in with an iron rod wrapped in razor-wire. To be honest, alot of goth chicks are kinda hot. No lie.

Now...we go on to my favorite part...

goth
n.

A style of architecture developed in northern France that spread throughout Europe between the 12th and 16th centuries; characterized by slender vertical piers and counterbalancing buttresses and by vaulting and pointed arches

...

BAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAAH!

You want to name your subculture after a bunch of pointy buildings made in the old days?

Good job, kids. Muchos kudos to you for putting the 'G' page of your dictionary up on the wall, tossing a dart, and picking whatever word it hits.

God knows that's the ONLY thing you use your dictionaries for.

...

BAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

Hooo...

Alright, now...in order to contradict the goths that claim to be devil worshipping blood spilling vampire whores...

The ancient Goths translated the bible into their tongue.

They weren't satanists.

Sorry to burst your little black bubble.

End rant.

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Strangely relieving.

I'm going to make this public so that any person from that site can come here and be 'enlightened'...heh.

goat4yew @ 2004-08-04T22:50:00

2004-08-05T02:50:28Z

goat4yew @ 2004-08-04T22:26:00

2004-08-05T02:27:32Z

Later tonight some changes are going to happen.

Just because I can.

Go me!

2004-08-04T00:07:58Z

Today was a barrel of something.

Not laughs.

More like acid that someone dumped in to kill said laughs.

Then they caught the barrel on fire and fwoosh, no mo laughs.

But, hey, look at this awesome new background. Spiff, no? I thought it was time for a bit of change.

I feel like telling all of you my new book idea so I'll do that in a friends only post later. I think it's my best idea so far. Go me :D

Puh

2004-08-02T20:04:04Z

Did my first real broadcast on Kryptic Shock today, was filling in for DJ Erica.

It went well after I adjusted a few things.

About four hours of pure GoATly music love.

Fun shit, that.

Hrmm

2004-07-31T23:21:07Z

Nothing better to do so I figure I'd just do something more than 5 simple lines of saying "I'm still kicking."

Got my RAM, in case I forgot to add that in my LJ somewhere...

COmputer runs dandy.

I defrag/spybot it alternately every night whilest I sleep.

So, it's running spiffy! ^_^ Hurrah..

Today sort of bit..

I found out my Gunbound was hacked, my hotmail was locked, and my Yahoo is refusing to let me add anyone and barely lets me message. Yes I tried reinstalling, thanks.

About 99.999999999~ % sure I lost a friend or three today.

Oddly enough...given the circumstances...

Well!

I've been attempting to write again as of late. Failing as per usual.

Gotta help babysit tonight. Joy. Kids...

If I'm not arrested for the murder of five children tonight, I'll see all(most) of your happy(pff) faces tomorrow (doubtful). <3 ( >:[ )

"Go Away"

2004-07-31T23:00:21Z

Wow.

Don't you love it when friends treat you like trash with no reason they wish to share?

Fun stuff, that.

Sorry I didn't post as I said I would, but, um, ya.

I'm trying to become a DJ on Kryptic Shock Radio which is turning out ok I guess.

Not really much else to report.

I'm going to go do something involving food. ^_^

Shwo.

2004-07-30T06:35:14Z

Bing.

I feel better.

Feel stupid too...which is normal for post-depression.

Have a long weekend ahead of me.

Tired.

I'll type in the morning.

Crying into my journal yet again...

2004-07-29T04:20:41Z

I've sat down and thought about it..

Hell isn't fire and brimstone and torture by demons for all of eternity...

Hell isn't the forever blackness of the Abyss...

Hell is a state of mind.

I have been in hell for 5 years.

As most of you know, five years ago I found my grandmother's body in her bedroom at 7:05 AM.

She was dead. Heart failure would be my bet.

Since then...life has gone downhill.

I stopped caring...grades dropped, I dropped out of school for fucks sake.

I stopped trying to push forward and just stood on the road of life while everyone else ran passed...

I was in a stupor, a shock, reality had slapped me with a shovel.

I let life pass me by and I felt nothing...maybe that's why people think Hell is a void.

I hate feeling like this. I feel like a goddamned selfish depressed emo-child.

And whining about feeling like this makes me some other cliche without a proper name.

Go me.

Bah.

goat4yew @ 2004-07-28T23:57:00

2004-07-29T03:57:51Z

"Perfect" by Simple Plan

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
Can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

As much as I hate putting lyrics in my LJ.

perk

2004-07-27T15:18:53Z

Blame selenytes for making me remember this..

I was downtown on mainstreet and saw some guys walking with "JESUS SAVES" signs strung over their shoulders as we went from the mouth of the road to the first stoplight, which was, sadly, red.

There were more on the corner only some 20 feet from us and one saw fit to yell...

"Praise the Lord Jesus for he gave his life so precious for our sins!"

Now, before I continue, doesn't that conflict with the bible itself? In the bible it says we have free will, and that we should cherish it. It also says "Thou shalt not judge", and he's judging me and my father as being not religious and not knowing who Jesus is.

Well, the first thing that came to my mind was..

"HAIL SATAN!" as we drove away, leaving them with expressions of utter shock on their faces. ^_^

Damn Michigan...

2004-07-27T15:06:10Z

The weather shifted abruptly the other day...and it gave me a cold.

I feel like shit at the moment, and the droopy weather isn't helping anything really.

Annnnd...everyones on away on all the messengers.

Can't really expect more on a Tuesday though.

goat4yew @ 2004-07-26T16:32:00

2004-07-26T20:33:17Z

Oi...

Funny shit, that.

goat4yew @ 2004-07-26T15:15:00

2004-07-26T19:15:17Z

Hmm

2004-07-26T16:07:54Z

Picked up Bujingai last night.

Best sword fighting game EVER.

I unlocked three movies with the production of the game. Mmm...Gackt.

It's only 40 bucks at EB! Go buy it. >_O

I wish I had more to say...meh.

Jackie went home today. But, I feel okay with that now.

And also...

CONGRATULATIONS DARCEY! ^_____^

Thoughts In A Deep Blue Something...

2004-07-25T04:03:00Z

Yes, so I saw my first Modest Mouse commercial the a few weeks back.

For some reason I just thought of it.

Thought I'd share.

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Jackie's going home.

Oddly I don't feel as sad as I feel I should.

Hmm.

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It is in my opinion that Republicans are the most useless political party on the face of the planet.

Debate if you will.

I'll still love you if you're republican, just don't ever argue politics with me with a republican view because I'll just think you're stupider with each passing second.

Now if you'll excuse me...I'm going to sleep.

Horny Fucking Bartender Whore...

2004-07-23T04:17:28Z

And it's so fucking awesome...

It puts any other book I've ever read to shame.

Horny bartender bitch was playing with herself while the man in black revived the 'weed-eater'...and the man in black?

BEST VILLAIN EVER.

He revived the weed-eater and told the bartender whore that if she ever says "Nineteen" in front of the weed-eater he will tell her the secrets of the afterlife, and it will make her go mad.

And he knows she will eventually do it because its human nature out of curiosity.

So she'll go mad trying not to say the word...or go mad after saying it.

Or both.

BEST. FUCKING. VILLAIN. EVER.

Mmm.

Oddly, I am proud of my writing in my previous entry...

Perhaps it is Wilhelm's happiness rubbing off on his God.

Who's to know?

Not many even care.

The Gunslinger made me think of human behavior tonight. That added with the human behavior patterns in I, Robot.

As the robots say...humans are illogical.

There are simple solutions to the worlds problems and yet the majority of humans find these solutions inhumane or wrong.

Population control...abortion...socialism...

Simple solutions.

You cannot let something trivial like "freedom to do what the fuck I want" destroy the planet.

I'm sure most of the people of the world couldn't give a rats ass if the world is ruined because, afterall, you'll be dead by the time the planet is kaput, right?

Well...those who think like that don't exactly deserve to vote in my opinion.

Most of the people voting nowadays either vote for people who are the most popular (Arnold became fucking GOVERNOR, people!) or the one who has the same religious views or are part of the same political party.

Okay, Republicans...I'm going to ask you people a little something...

Why are you even considering voting for Dubya?

Don't try to feed me the "he has some GOOD IDEAS" bullshit because all he is is a piece of daddy's boi uneducated hick trash.

And thats my questionable opinion on that(those) matter(s).

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I went and applied at some jobs yesterday...Arby's...McDonald's...Little Caeser's...

Arby's I think I have a chance at, the guy (manager) gave me one of those looks. No, not those kinds, pervert.

McDonald's gave me an application already written on, and I didn't realize this until it was too late. So I tore it up.

Meh.

One less competitor for the job!

Little Caeser's was out of applications, so I'll go back on Friday for one.

So ya, I only got one app out.

It was fucking 95 degrees and I was walking. Sue me.

If I seem a bit pissed off today, it's mainly because I've realized, yet again, how moronic most of the human race is.

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Name:
Hair:	Never stays the same style/colour for long.
Clothes:	Long, super cool trenchcoats.
Powers:	Fire magic
Special Features:	Fangs
Sidekick:	Large dragon.
Attitude:	Cold and quiet.
Weapon:	A sword that's twice as big as you are.

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Oddly enough, this is how I picture the character Etude. Very nice.

Gunslinger...over the first dune

2004-07-20T03:30:02Z

Link/comments may contain spoilers.

Went through chapter one.

I'll be honest, it's been a while since I read something that good.

The only book I read that comes close to how well written this book is thus far are the three Drizzt Do'Urden books based in the Underdark when he first comes to the surface (the titles escape me).

The way King details Roland just stepping over a sand (hardpan) dune and setting a fire where the Man In Black's fire had been the previous night is great.

Though...

It does come close to the "too detailed" border in my opinion. Yes, that is possible.

Not everyone would enjoy reading about how Roland's gun holsters don't crack in the heat of the neverending desert of the world.

The way that the devil-grass resembles some forms of smokeable drugs in the "real world" is, as the cover says "creepily similar and realistic to the reader".

Why have I been reviewing every little bit of this book? I can't say. Perhaps just as an excuse to push aside writing even longer.

Ahh...that little man in the vast lands of the world within my mind, standing atop a pillar of crude stone that reaches up to the sky like so many skyscrapers stacked upon one another...screaming into the shadowy darkness of the both starless and moonless night sky.

I can just barely make out what he says, though it affects me more than it should.

Perhaps this is what it is like to be "God" or something similar.

A world...created from your own imagination...people screaming for you to expand on this world or improve it in some how.

That is what the little man screams to his God. He screams for me to make the world a better place for him. Make my universe bigger to give it more potential.

I look down at this little man, his dirty blond hair filled with dust, his face smeared with sweat and caked dirt from climbing the pillar of stone...and I smile.

The only way for me to expand my world would be to tap the "inner-author", for lack of a better term.

It would mean for me to write. Do the thing that which I've lost most confidence in my abilities in.

I look down at the man and smile, though I know he cannot see his God as he smiles down at him. I do not know this man's name, though I feel as though I should.

I do not know this man's past...though I know that I should.

How can one enter my world, nay, my mind without me knowing who it is?

Perhaps he is madness.

Perhaps he is who produces my dreams, for I am sure I've never seen that person before.

Perhaps...he is screaming because he wishes for me to give him an identity.

Yes...that must be it. That must be what this little creature desires of his God.

And so...I begin to pull the strings of reality within my mind.

Oh how I have forgotten how fragile and loose these strings are!

This man's name is Wilhelm...I have desire to give him more, yet he seems satisfied for the moment.

Undoubtedly he shall return...return for further gifts from his possibly mad deity.

Am I mad?

Perhaps we are all mad in our own little ways.

Taking my time

2004-07-20T00:45:26Z

Haven't started the Gunslinger yet really.

Just finished the introduction and the foreword...and I must say I'm really impressed with King's ability to put life in such simple terms.

He gave the feeling of "being nineteen for years" and has me wanting to read more of his work when theres still an entire two books for me to read.

I guess I should've listened to the masses this time and given King a chance sooner. Like...before he was retiring for good.

Have You Seen This Child?

2004-07-19T03:57:46Z

Anyone seen or heard from Goochy in the past week or so? o_O